Self-doubt is something everyone has to a certain degree. Mine comes and goes in waves. Interestingly enough, this is my first blog post and it has come from a moment of wanting to take down this site altogether. I have only just built it, truly only 30 mins ago.
One small mishap at work, one negative comment from one person and everything has come tumbling down. I feel embarrassed about the site, I feel like I can't offer anything of any use and I'm starting to wonder why I set it up in the first place. Because in my head, I've already failed.
It starts with that feeling in your stomach right? When it sinks really low and your skin feels like ice. I feel like a child in trouble. Like I need to go and sit in a dark room and talk to no one for weeks. Why bother? Everything I do is stupid anyway.
But, I've been contemplating building this site for my own sanity and for other people who have experienced anxiety and self-doubt for so long now. It's been brewing for a year and I can't not do it. I can't not do it!
Welcome to Sergeant Calm. Please get in touch with your stories and struggles, what helps and what doesn't. If you want me to publish something on the site publicly or anonymously do get in touch. Let's talk, let's make this normal.